I've been real quiet around my blog lately. Christmas is keeping me busy and awful things have happened to me lately. I am not quite sure how I have energy to still do things, but for my blog I have had ideas but not enough energy. I apologize for that. A lot of topics are gonna be on their ways before new year and till that I will do my best to get back in the game!
Shortly, I had to quit my job because of my criminal boss, I am currently having a flue and my grandmother is in such bad shape that she may not see the year 2014. She is in her ages of 91 in a week. Her heart is letting go and she is terrified where will she spend the rest of her days.
Last time I lost someone was almost 13 years ago, my dearest grandfather. He always felt like the father for me and for his war records I was always real proud. It's been so many years, and when it happened I was real young, but I still shed a tear or two almost every other day. I miss him so badly. I know it's grandma's time to go, I have been well aware of that for years now. Still I know how this is gonna feel for my mother. She is going to loose the last parent of hers and I feel how it takes all out of her. This unstable times, all time afraid when will be the time, and yet it all happens under Christmas. Christmas was never that good for us anyway. I wonder will we even celebrate it after this. A reminder of the awful day every year. Well Christmas has always been only about presents to us, me and mom. I have always wanted to celebrate it with Nori, but every year she leaves to be together with her own family and leaves me here for 4 days. At times like this I wished she wouldn't, but I can't ask her to ruin her own Holidays for to stay here being upset with me. I know Christmas is way more important to my in-laws than for me. I still wish this all wouldn't happen just now. This fall has been so full of fear and sorrow already and now this..
To cheer up this post a little, I share a few Christmas preparation pictures I have taken so far.
Today I'm gonna take my first steps to the wild after 4 whole days inside the house!